char wen she was in my hse for stayover.fer studies.
one of my elder cuz sis n me durin the weddin reception.
me n lee.
my paintin in progress.
this is another pic of my paintin.
tken in bus on the way fer tuition.
this doll kept irritatin me..so yeah wanted to show u guys.actualli its very adorable but it has no legs n hands, all with sponge.
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sorri was unavailable. was hit hard by sths. anyway, 25 AUGUST 07, actually the previous day char stayed over in my hse till today.then i left her alone in my hse fer my parents 2 tc of her while i left hse at 6:45am to temple alone.i felt abit down and upset and i wanted to ask 4 4gipness and at the same time pray fer all loved ones.came back at 8:30am n then took a short nap wit char on my bed.n woke up at 10 fer tuition.then after tt,proceeded to study with MR tan with char.he helped us with SS.n he gave me a hp keychain which he said he specially bot 4 our class.i was touched.he asked us to choose and so we did.then later after being so tired,proceeded HOME.n mum said they are all goin to go fer my relative's reception.n since nobody was at home,n i din feel comfortable stayin at home alone so i decided to get ready with my parents too. well,in a way wanted to spend tym with them.after i went there,all my relatives were actualli surprised tt i was present.all my aunts missed me BIGTIME. n as usual nans and other cuz sistas were there.didn stay long there,coz had to pick up my bro hu was on crutches frm elsewhere.so mum,dad n i left. came home n watched movie together.though sth was amiss in my life,i had to make my heart brave.nowadays i feel emptiness wen i sleep.though the usual check on my hp is always done,jus this sth.i feel there's alot more unexplained n nobody hears me inside out.everytink is locked up apparently.
MR TAN said:bhavani, life is like a BED OF ROSES, but the ROSES are thorns. so live with it like everyday is ur last day. CHARMAINE:yes i agree,MR TAN.hmmss.. VANI: its very difficult to express ur inner feelings cos even if today is my last day on earth, i wuldn wanna die with an unsatisfied heart or by hurtin everyone arnd me.
MR TAN: ermm? CHARMAINE: tcher, then hw abt this part?correct or not?
26th AUGUST 2007.
nth much happened. had a LONG,REALLY long sleep. cos i guess ive not been hafin early nights becos of studies. though there's no1 beside me now,i walk a lonely road.u were the LAST person hu i eva wanted to mistake me. well ppl, will be leavin u guys reall soon.n maybe a month with this blog wuld be the time i wuld be spendin.after that,which is after my O's,i would not be around, fer i tink quite long.would not be a burden or a hurt to anyone.i hope i would always be rmbered even if i aint around. i love u ppl> to all those who were beside me always n also those hu made a special difference in my life,those hu played a part in my life n to those hu tolerated my nonsense. i would like to say sorry from deep within my heart. thanks alot and if ive created so much of trouble for anyone, i really am SORRY.this is really sincere.my oath is my oath.many haf hurt me big tym and seriously alot but well i blame myself too. i was born like that,likke from the start.once ive created an image of a person form the very beginnin i DUN CHANGE it. cos i look up to the person fer hu he/she was even b4 anythin n not what he/she has turned to become.i wish u ppl all the best in ur future endeavours. if yall do nid me,i'll always be there. take care. bYe.im off to study fer my prelims. spendin tym with my family now too. bye.dere are just sum pix above.tke a look.
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theGIRL
made to be VANI
a female
16 years of tragedy
be my unholy,my one and only.
i kick,laugh,cry,roll and LOVE too.
loyalty is my priority and i go gaga OVER everyting.
leave ur lovenotes,not ur hatenotes.
ITS MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY=BINGO! >
